What God puts in my heart

Psalm 103 Of David:

Praise the LORD , O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
Praise the LORD , O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.

The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass,
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD's love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children's children-
with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.

If I can take all new responsibilities, it's not because of me, but Him

Hello my dear diary, back again at Indianapolis. Thank you, Lord for such an awesome weekend. Special thanks to Ce Beth for the sharing, it refreshed and burned me with God's fire again. Lord, I thank for your guidance, strength, annointing to take be WL last Saturday. It was done great because of You. I can do all things through God who strengthen me. (Phillipians 4:13, "I can do everything through him who gives me strength") You're so faithful. Bros and Sis, walk with God seriously, He will grant the success. It is God who at the first that put the calling and talents on me, I don't want to steal your glory, Lord....even a bit...I don't want. I want to keep my heart pure and humble in front of you and others. Let you be glorified through my life. I want people to see you in my life. Just now, my sister taught me how to keep a pure and humble in ministering.

• Minister with God's strength (not your strength)
• Don't look at the result (many times as human beings, we tend to see something from its result, but don't measure your ministries by result, don't try to ask people: how was that, etc --> tend to make us proud of ourselves instead of God)

Be the right person at the right place for the right calling. Lord, it's so wonderful to walk with You.

Last Friday, CaPLoG inC. family had the first gathering. It's was fun and wonderful time. We had two new friends joining us, TJ and Shinta. We also had b-day celebration for Selly, WoonKet, Steven, and Raymond. Wishing you all the best for the new year, may God guide you evenmore and bring you closer to Him. God bless you, bros and sis! I directly went to Lafayette with Ci Ulie after we're done with CG. Thanks ci Ulie for driving. Thanks God for the safety.

Saturday, January 29' 05... before 9am, I woke up in the morning, got ready for the intercessory meeting. At the meeting, I claimed Mathew 18: 20, "For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them.” I cried to God, seeking for His presence. I said to the Lord, I wanted to feel you before I minister. After the meeting, I had my quick lunch and preparation, then we went to church for music practice. We had an awesome fellowship with God and others before the practice. Thanks Lord for the comformation, for the unity, for the heart. I want to thank to all God's partner in music ministry, I'm blessed by your heart guys! Keep the heart and fire burning for God. Together we ask God for more and more might works at the service. I had a wonderful practice. Thanks for all the support, guys! Thank you, Abba for enabling me to lead. I was nervous abit before the service starts. But again, God is a wonderful God. When you obey and surender fully on Him, it's not you who do it, but it's God. It was such a great experience to be able to take the opportunity and give my best. Bros and Sis, always come to God with the right heart and attitude. Give back to him whatever things that He deserves to receive.

Saturday after service, we had a fun and wonderful dinner with Luciu at City grill buffet. Thanks Luciu, looking foward to have dinner with others too. After dinner, I had a meeting with C-git and Lyn for Valentine event. Thanks for the time, ideas, and efforts guys! really proud of you both....who want to serve for God. God values that..... Then......time to sleep...zzzz...thanks sis Linda and Lisa for the house. Feel so welcome...

Sunday morning, woke up early for Leaders' meeting. I was so sleepy, but again knowing that I do this for my Father, so I must wake up. Thanks bro Agung and Kevin for the breakfast, it tastes yummy....good breakfast. We proceed with prayer meeting. Congrats to C-git who finally had the courage to pray at PM, keep doing that! Dolly also.......be brave ya sis! God is with us....

Vonny, Ray and I had lunch at Basil Thai. Thanks Von for letting me drink my three colors puding tea, my fave! Then.....unexpectedly and unintentionally, we looked at the tire, it was flat....and Ray finally found a nail (the cause). We decided to stop by at Sagamore to change the tire with the spare and then find the place to fix that. Thanks to bro Davis, our "hilo", Sandy (supposed to be
hero, but "cadel"), william, others for being there. At the end, we stopped at Sears auto center to fix the tire. So we spent some times at mall again (since last week we went there for Selly's b-day present), and we ended up arriving at Indy almost 7pm. Thanks for driving Von.

Hm..........seems so long for this time diary, lots of things to share. Wanna say special thanks to my family back at Indo, Ce Beth, Lely, Fiona, Ci Ulie, Diani, Vonny, Selly, who else.....LCB family for all the prayers and supports. That means a lot for me....... isn't that the purpose God creating families for you and me?

Gut nite all.......hope this can be a blessing for you all, as they are all blessings for me. Every blessing You pour out, Lord....turn back to praise!

It is Thursday again....

Hellowwwwww diary, how is everybody doing today? Well, today is colder than yesterday. My class started ar 9:30am, so I need to be there before that to find a good parking spot. Thanks God that there is no 11am class this semester, during that hour, the parking is always bad. Now, God gives me the chance to taste the morning, I got 9:30am class on my first semester. After a while, kinda get used to it, at least is better than someone who needs to get up at 6am, sorry for you :P. Thank you Lord for today. I went home at 2pm, had my lunch and took a nap. Then I woke up, do some stuffs and also waited for my roomie. we had fun cooking together as usual. Tonite, I got something unusual though, man...I forgot to put salt and pepper to my veggie (napa+egg), so it taste a bit different than my usual veggie test. Eniwei, it's still edible though. Yuli tried out a new food, it was nice :) well, Yuli is so gifted at cooking, so whatever she cooks will be just nice, reminding me of my sis Selly and Elisa, and Ce Beth at Indo. Do you believe that cooking is a gift? Whoever has that give must enjoy cooking and whatever they cook will turn yummy 90% (mostly). Think about something that you enjoy doing it and it bless others, this activity is usually where you are gifted at. Somehow........I feel like missing my parents and brothers, will call them tomorrow. They are all together now, hiks hiks I'm left here. I will enjoy my times here before I graduate, may 2006. Lord, let me be maximal. Use me even more for Your glory. By the way, Sunie is on her way to Indo now. I'm happy for her. She hasn't gone home for 3 years, can you imagine that? I can't imagine myself being in her position. Tonite, Vonny came here for the dinner invitation. Sometimes she rejects for having a dinner with me and Yuli ckckckc but she finally ate here. I was having meeting with Evelyn and Sigit over the msn when she came. Thanks for the time, ideas, and efforts, guys! I'm proud of your willingness, well done! God sees that from the heaven. After that, I must excuse myself since I had something to do with my sweet Pong. Vonny, Yuli, and I had fun tonite. We looked at pictures, shared things, and of course laughed together. Thanks sista Vonny and Yuli for the time, feel like having a family. Wah.......it's so late already. I guess it's time for me to start my nite adventoure. Some duties are waiting in line...too much fun tonite I guess. Tomorrow we will have our first Care Group, please come and join with us. It will start at 7:30pm, at 6105 Nalon Lane apt C, Indianapolis, IN-46224. We will have something fun going on.....other thing is of course, nice dinner with CaPLoG family. We welcome everyone to join.........See ya all!

Debbie&Diani 

My old sweet doggie, Mickey, miss her now... 

Little Debbie (16 months) 

Little Me (4 years old) 

Thanks God for the strength to finish another day

Hi diary, yesterday I slept earlier than usual since I spent 11 hours at school. Today I woke up earlier to do finalize my homework. I was in rush this afternoon, until I decided to have my lunch when my car was heated. Another sad news, today the group for I-core project was announced. Yuko and I weren't in the same group. I sad for that, it seems our plan just gone :( Sorry Yuko... but I want to believe that this is under God's control. Lord, I want to say thank you for the group, I believe You've choosen the best for me. Lead us to plan and finish the project well. Today's classes were fine, although at the last class, I felt hungry and tired. Today I met my marketing professor, Mrs. Kim Donahue. We had a good conversation. Thanks God for giving me the opportunity to mention about our student organization plan. It was out of no where that she suddenly asked me about how to spell my name, so I told her. This led me to mention about Hery (finally bro :)), so now she is a candidate for our advisor. I'm going to meet her on Monday, please support me in prayer. She said that she will be glad to help if she can, the only problem is her dad. Let's pray for her dad, he has a serious disease that can't be cured. But, isn't our God a wonderful healer? Keep your faith on that. Keep praying, permit God to work mightily based on His plans. I'm happy for that. Today again....I felt tired and pain on my body. Hopefully I'll be stronger again. Yuli and I tried to cook red curry using thai paste, it was okay. Nowadays, someone always get busy at the library. I think I need to make an appointment with the secretary hehehhehe....(someone will know whom I'm talking about). Don't be too tired ya...take care of your body. Miss the times when we can laugh and joke with each other like before. Well, wishing you all the best for your studies and works. For Diani: Thanks for always greet me on msn, really appreciate your caring to me, sis! Feel like we have been in the sisterhood long time ago...and hope we'll always be. Thanks to Ci Ulie for laughing together about what my mom said on "kedagingan kuat sekali hahahha" I guess those are all for today. Nite everyone........Welcome to my diary, Alana! Thanks for stopping by. Her, I really appreciate that you do read my blog regularly. Hope I can keep my blog interesting and attractive.

One month siberian husky puppies, wish I can see them... 

My sleeping puppies, aren't they cute?  

Waiting for the bus to come....what time is it? 

Andrew-Mei"-Diani-Sigit 

|Little-Angel| 

CaPLoG inC. Family 

The longest day at school so far...

Let me begin with a brief view about what was happening yesterday. Like usual, I went to school from 1-5:15pm, three classess in a row. Then, I stopped by at Lee and Kroger. We bought lots of things hehehhe.....all the food that we can imagine to be consumed. Why gals always buy lots of things based on their creativity in making food but sometimes end up not utilize those materials at all. Guess what happen next? The trash will be full with those. Hopefully, Yuli and I will utilize all of those materials to fulfill our plan. Well, we arrived home at 7pm and prepared stuffs to cook. We had a bad accident with the sink in the kitchen. Yuli peeled potato and throwed the skin at the skin, dunno why this time my sink didn't work. We were quite panic, I directly remembered the toilet bowl accindent in Yenny's place a semester ago. So I tried to call steph to ask for plunger, he wasn't sure if he has one. Finally I called pon" chay, thanks God, she has one. So I ran to her apartment. I wore sandal, it was cold, specially when my feet accidentally fell into the thick snow. We spent about one hour to empty the water.......it was bad...i tried to call the emergency call but never got back. Oh ya.....Happy belated B-day for Raymond. Sorry bro, I just remember today at school......so bad :( I already memorize it on Sunday. We cooked chicken satay (I bought thai seasoning from Lee), it wasn't bad, and "potato-carrot-green pepper sambal" was so yummy, dunno why, but I just love it. After that, I took shower and tried to figure out my operation management homework. It was hard, I was frustated, but I believe God is in control. Now, we moved to today's story. I've planned to not go back home for today, although I have 6 hours gap. Since I have two homeworks to work on, I decided to just stay there. Thanks God for all wisdom, and everyone who helped me (friends and teachers), so glad to have them. This afternoon, I finally had chance to have lunch with pong", I met the medan guy named TJ btw. I was surprised when this guy called vonny, he doesn't seem like Indonesian. The way he dressed up doesn't reflect an indonesian guy. We tried to invite him to this week CG, hope he will join. Another good news is that I finally found an article for my news brief project for HR class, thanks God for that. I was so tired at my last class, we were done at 8:05pm. During break at 7pm, I called Yuli, asking about our dinner plan. We planned to eat outside rather than cook, realizing we just had the sink problem yesterday and we haven't washed the dishes. So I went to the parking garage and tried to find my car. I dunno why I was so blur...probably I as very tired. I spent about 10 minutes walking up and down, finding my car. I was worried, confused, and afraid if I lose my car......but finally, I found it. I felt so happy. i drove faster tonite because I was tired and hungry. Yuli went first from home to order the food at BW3, did I name it correctly? hope so. We was eating and watching american idol continue with an interesting serial movie. It was good..........even we are done at 9:30pm, we kept watching the movie until 10pm. We went back home. Oh ya, this morning I stopped by at the office to report the sink and my bathtub, and happy knowing that they are now working properly. I can feel pain on my arm due to "yesterday exercise". Thanks God for putting me the songs that I will sing this saturday. Thanks for the safety drive, Lord! Nite everyone...........Di, get well soon ya. Miss you here too! Somehow feel like we already bound by the love from our friendship. Amazed for that! Thanks for the joy and love that you've shared with me :)

Back at the town

Hi diary, this evening I just got back from Lafayette. I went there on Friday afternoon to help Vonny with decoration stuffs. Thanks God that I can use what God has put in my life to be able to contribute. Just amazed how God put such creativity in His childrens' mind, God is a true creativino. Before I went to Lafayette, I met my lopely bro, Ciwan at msn. I was surprised because it was around 12:30am there. He told me that he just took shower and wanted to sleep. He just back from China, guangzhou (do I spell it correctly?),to study chinese language. Lely said that Ciwan is very good at speaking chinese. By the way, Ciwan informed me that he is the best student, man...thanks God for giving me such a clever and dilligent brother. A very discipline brother that has been acted as a role model for Andre and me. I'm proud of you, bro! You've made God, parents, families, and friends proud of your accomplishment. Well done and keep the good work! Eniwei, welcome home, my dear Ciwan! Ciwan ---> Coco Iwan, thus I usually didn't call ko Iwan, but ciwan, different with Andre who likes to call him by just "koko". This nickname was created when I was in primary school. I remember that it was me and my dancing teacher, Ko Leo, who gave that nickname, a cute one. On friday evening, I went for music practice and drama, then helping the decor. team. I slept in Linda's place with Vonny for the first time. Thanks to sister Linda for the hospitality, also for tin" and cie Ulie for the instant noodle. It was fun staying at a new place. I joined the intercessory team, Thanks God for the strength and courage to lead. Something wrong with my yahoo groups, all emails were bounced back, thus I didn't realize if I was supposed to be on duty for leading the intercessor meeting, sorry bros and sis about that, but the email should be fine now. Tin" and I were late for drama practice, luckily that Rio hasn't exploded yet....although his voice was already scary. I went over the practice and then went back home for preparing myself for the service and welcoming service. What I learned was always remember to prepare your heart before coming for your appointment with God. Don't give to God your tiredness, bad-mood, but be ready to meet your God. We will not feel God's presence, if we come without our right heart to meet God, without hunger and thrist we'll not meet God. I was sad looking at some people who weren't really praising and worshiping God, can you image what did God feel at that time? How if God looks down and sees how the way His people praising and worshiping Him? Man....if I can feel sad looking at this phenomena, I'm sure God is more sad than me. Bros and Sis, don't you want to please Him after all the things that He has done in our life? Don't you long to see His smile when He hear our praises and worships? We need to learn together how to put a smile in God's face. Let's fix our heart and our relationship with Him. He deserves the highest praise! The welcoming service went well, you can check all photos at www.padang.org, thanks to Boy for his hobby and talent to document all sweet moments. Thanks to Rio, Jevlyn, Rudy, Sunie, Vonny, Evelyn, well everyone who had contributed for the event. Well done, guys! Special thanks of course to our beloved Father in heaven for all strength, ideas, everything! also for everyone who came. I went to walmart with Diani and Winpa, not Mimpa (diani's n frisca's roomie) to buy some stuffs that I need. By the way, Saturday was the first day for me to drive in severe weather. I hate looking at my dirty car :( hiks....the snow storm made my car looks bad. I can't wait until I can wash it. Lord, thanks for the safety while driving on the snow, thanks that we don't have snow anymore today, thus I was able to drive well from Laf to Indy. Thanks to Vonny and Ray for accompaniying me to have lunch at Korean resto. Welcome back my home sweet home. Now is the time for my bed.......take care everyone. Have a blessed nite. God bless! Lel, thanks for the "oleh-oleh", although I haven't been informed by Ciwan about that. I appreciate your caring and kindness, my new cie".

The first CG prayer meeting

Today was a tiring day, after having I-core classes (Operation Management, Finance, Marketing). You are rite, bro Hery. After done with classes, I need to go to library to print some stuffs for prayer meeting. Then I went to Saigon to help Sunie buy things for welcoming service and buy food for our dinner. Tonite I learned how to make cheesecake huaaaaa so yum yum, I'll try to make one next time, shouldn't be that hard. Thanks to Sunie cie", she was the one who taught me about eating cheesecake, at first I was afraid coz it looked so cheesy, but now........i really like cheesecake, specially Sunie handmade :) green tea, coffee, strawbery flavor huaaaaaaa. Baking 10 cheesecake isn't easy, coz we only use two oven for all of those, hope it will turn okay tomorrow. Pretty tired and sleepy now. First prayer meeting went fine, we went through CG organizational structure and schedules. Thanks for attending the mandatory meeting, brothers and sisters. Really appreciate your heart for coming and contributing. Special thanks to Sunie who in charge of food for WS, Vonny who is taking care of decoration, I'm sure your efforts will be appreciated both by God and others. Thank you Lord for today!

School again...

I need to wake up in the morning again.....zzzz....so sleepy and lazy, but I can't miss the call. Thanks for the wake up call btw. This morning was really cold but bright, it was a bit hard to open my car door, since I didn't use my lopely car for 3 days, and it was snowy n cold. Thanks God....I can open it, can't imagine if the door couldn't be opened. I went back home after the first class, since I always have 6 hours gap between the morning and evening classes. I took a nap and then read my textbook for a while, took shower and went to the school again. Last class for today went fine. The teacher talked so fast...pretty hard to catch every words that need to be noted, eniwei the class was good. It is not a boring class...thanks God for that. Driving back and to school.....made my heart full of gratitude of what God has given me. Thanks God for the opportunity to be able to study in Indianapolis, a beautiful and lovely city; for my sweet ellegant silverado car. Well basically for everything that God has done in my life until this far. Lately, I've been thinking about someone special, best friend that always comes and goes....students' life. You can't hope that someone will be with you all the times, but Jesus will always be my best friend, the only one I can always count on. He is there for you for 24 hours. For Lely, be strong ya. There will be another imot" come, pray for that :) Pray that God's joy and peace will rest in your heart. Thanks for the dinner tonite, ci Ulie...it's nite already. Time to read my book again.....

Wonderful Experience at Bloomington

Welcome back my home sweet home. I went to Lafayette last Friday until Sunday afternoon. Then continue to Bloomie, a nice and quite city. This is my first time attending BCBC service and at the same time, do my duty. By the way, it was my first time preaching and Praise The Lord, it went fine and I hope it can be a blessing for them. Thanks Father and pastor for giving me the chance to be trained and also minister in BCBC. Wonderful and nice experience! Now, I have the chance to meet people from Bloomie, and guess what? They are very nice and friendly, happy to see them :) We had dinner at CiBu ---> China Buffet (Leno's fave). It was fun to have dinner with all of them. Feel like a family.....close and warm. Then, I went to Library with Leo. Thanks for bringing me to try the bubble tea :) I had a funny story at the library. Actually Leo was studying with his friend from Hongkong at that time, so we introduced each other. Then Leo was missing, dunno where for a while. I was asking that guy, if I can use cell phone at the library. And here comes the funny part, he suddenly asked for my phone and then he add his number there. Hm....I guess it was missunderstanding. So I was confused at that time. Sunday nite at the library hehhehe doesn't sound very interesting, but I got the chance to check IU's library. Btw, I was not planning to stay over-nite, but since one of the brothers there wants to go for dimsum at Shen Yang, Ci Lydia asked me to stay there. Thanks to Irene Tan (Atan --> dunno how to spell) for the house. So, today I woke up then got ready to go back. We had lunch in Shen Yang, Vonny and Steph also joined with us, it was a total of 19 people. Oh ya, I met a friendly and nice American gal, Alana. She is interested in learning Indonesia language and she can sing couple Indonesian songs. Well done, Lana! Then we went to Fashion Mall to check Leo's Ipod case, sorry that you can't find one. Tonite, I had the opportunity to have dinner, sharing and praying time with my sweet sista, Vonny. Looking foward to do it again, sis! Thanks God for such a wonderful time. All the best for the new responsibilities ya...you can do it with God! Okie dokie, it's late already. I have a morning class tomorrow. Time to start my nite adventure.......see ya all. Nite everyone!

IUPUI banner made by CaPLoG inC. 

Papi Chris and Mami Lydia 

Vonny and Debbie 

LCB: Breakthrough Nite  

God's Confirmation for me to walk on...

Our God is a living God. He is an on-time God. He knows when to answer our prayer at the right time. As I was reading bible for my daily devotional, God spoke so clear to me. I read Nehemia 2:1-10. God put my focus on verses 2-3, "Nehemia wasn't ashamed to admit his fear, but he refused to allow fear to stop him from doing what God had called him to do. When we allow our fears to rule us, we make fear more powerful than God. Is there a task that God wants you to do, but fear is holding you back? God is greater than all your fears. Recognizing why you are afraid is the first step in commiting it to God. Realize that if God has called you to do a task, he will help you accomplish it." Debora says, Amen! Thank you Lord for an awesome confirmation. I want to do what Nehemia did. You are the one who call me at the first place, I believe You will help me accomplish it. I don't want to be afraid, because I have You to guide and lead me. My dear sista, Vonny, I hope this revelation can help you to walk on just as I responded to God's calling. Hope you will read this soon, Von! Thanks once again, Lord! My heart is full of joy, no more worries, because You've choosen me to do Your will. Amen...........He has made me glad, I will rejoice forever for Him!

I badly need God's Power of Healing

Today was the 2nd meeting for my morning class. I had a gal sat next to me, a pretty gal and I finally found someone to talk to. She has another same class with me too, glad that she remember me :) Sometimes, having no one to talk to in class is so boring. Another good news is the gal from halfcom who I ordered a book from has replied me, so I expect to get the book next Tuesday, that was what she said. Eniwei, I had vonny's friend, Jinny, lending her textbook while I'm waiting for my order. I went back home early coz I only had one class today. I stopped by Indy College Bookstore to refund a textbook. A funny thing happened, the gal who was in the cashier accidentally charge my card again, instead of refund my money. I was a bit worried, but finally she took care of that. She refunded my money twice. Arrived at home, chat with Pastor for a while. Feel like praying to God, so I went to my bed and had a chit-chat with God. Realizing that I can't do anything without God, I need to surender fully on Him. I took a nap in the afternoon....man...thanks God when I went to school in the morning, the weather was nice although it was raining. The weather started changing in the afternoon...........at the same time....my health was drop. I'm having raining noze and bit cough since I woke up in the evening. Today's dinner was fetucinni alfredo (hope I spell rite) and we made desert, Jelly. We also had cincau....yum yum....we made it yesterday. Last time when I was having my holiday, Yuli proposed a plan to have a dessert everyday. I'm excited for that. Oh Lord, I badly need the power of healing. Thanks God for the wisdom to prepare the material for Sunday. When we say Yes to God, He will surely lead us, amen! Special thanks to Diani and Hery! Look at my blog....so nice with the chatter box and links. Her, it's so nice to have a brother like you. Advertisement: A kind, nice, good, and smart Mars Male. A man of God who can be a good family man......but can't cook. Dilligent, sporty, what else ya? contact 1-800-herysmile, open 24 hours hehehehhe :P Okie dokie, time is up. Now I need to take my medicini, sleep well, and ready to study for tomorrow. Nite everyone...........I want to meet Fiona.... :), a pretty gal whom I haven't met for 3 years maybe???

When I say "yes, my Lord!"

Tonite, I just figured out that God gives me big opportunities to be used by Him. It seems like every opportunity (I chose to call them so) comes at the same time. I was worried, afraid, confused, a bit stress..........but again like what I said, Lord, if this is Your ways to train me, I will answer yes, do so my Lord. I believe leaders are there to see your potential, to see what God can use you to be. Thanks to sister Sasa and Pastor Chris for being able to see what God has planted in my life. Thanks God for sending me Yuli, Fiona, Ce Beth to help me to be grateful for God has given. Thanks for all advices, words that encourage and strengthen me to see this as a great opportunities, sis! Thanks for reminding me of my prayers to God. I was asking myself, "will I be able to go foward, to take the chances, to say YES for God's training times, will I be able to depend fully and walk with Him????" Lord, this is my prayer: let it be more of You and less of me. Let the world see You who live in me! I don't care how the result is going to be as long as I do my best. I believe that you will do the rest. Lord, search my heart.........I want everything comes back for Your glory. Give me Your strength and courage to go on. Help me put aside all personal reasons, let it be just as what You plan, my Lord! Bila aku ada sebagaimana aku ada sekarang, itu semua karena anugrah dan kasih karunia Tuhan semata. Jadilah padaku seperti yang Kau ingini. Ku berjuang sampai akhirnya, Kau dapati aku tetap setia.............Lord, let's work together to accomplish Your calling in my life, amen! Brothers and Sisters, how about you? Are you ready to say "YES" for God's calling? Prepare yourself! Be ready to say "Yes" when the time comes..........cause the second opportunity may not come soon. I hope this sharing can bless everyone's heart who read.

Thanks God for the strength

Dear Diary, today is the 3rd day of school. I really grateful for God's strength that I start enjoying my class. Just need more discipline and dilligency to keep up with the busy schedule. I've been having an uncomfortable throat and little cough, I must take care of my body. I don't want to get sick....Lord, I need the power of healing! Lately, I get in touch with some old friends and family... happy for that. The fresh one was my elementary school, Inge. It's been around 8 years or more I think. Somehow, her look doesn't change, but it's so nice to hear about her passion for God. Keep the good work, sis! Yesterday, when I reached home, Yuli already cooked for me. Nice and yummy food btw. Yuli is one of the best chefts huehuehue I can learn how to cook more variety of food. This morning, I got "tugas negara" from Pastor Chris to share God's words in BCBC this Sunday. Please do support me in prayer ya so that I can be a blessing there, thanks bro and sis! You may come and join with BCBC service too. Now it's time to do homework. I'll try to write my blog regularly. Take care everyone and nite...

Starting School Again....

On Sunday, I was afraid of Monday, the first day of school. I was worried about how to handle I-Core and so on. Although I know that God will always work with me, but I was sad, afraid, and worried for my new semester. Thanks to my parents, Papi Chris, Bunda Jenny for praying for me. It was a new and great experience to pray together over MSN with Jenny. Give it a try! It's a bit weird coz you don't use to it, but it is powerful. After having my sate, I slept. Monday morning was cloudy......man...those days are always cloudy. I had my first I-Core classes yesterday. It wasn't bad, but I know my semester will be busy. God, help me to believe that You are the same God for every semester. If I can pass last semesters, I want to see Your mighty works this semester. Let's work together, God! I was done with my class at 5:15pm, then I needed to print all those syllabus and notes for those classes. Thanks Hery, for the files. Thanks God for the chance to meet Hery's mom. Brothers and Sisters, please bring Hery's mom in your prayer so that she can experience God's healing power, Amen! I arrived home around 7:30pm and then cooked dinner with Yuli. Yesterday was the first time, Yuli and I were praying together. It was great and powerful. Need to keep that in mind and do again more often. Today, I must wake up at 8am, since I have a class at 9:30-10:45am. Now, I'm home to have my lunch and do some homework. Later on in the afternoon, I'll have my evening class, 5:45-8:25pm. God, I pray for a good and nice teacher and an excited class, so that I won't get bored or sleepy. Lord, I hand in my new semester in Your mighty hands. I'm looking foward to see Your miracles over my school. Have you prayed for your new semester??? Just a reminder.....okie dokie, time to do my assignments. God bless you, all!

Sorry for not blogging.......

Dear diary, sorry for not writing you anything to be shared with others. I was having fun with my temporary roomie, Diani n my lopely roomie, Yuli. We went for window shopping and well....Diani got everything she wished to have. I was happy to have the opportunity to spend time with Diani. It was nice and fun to cook together with her. My sweet sista, Diani, she likes to help people btw. But time flies so fast. On Friday, I was helping Sunie for the teeth surgery, she needed me to bring her there and wait for her while she had the surgery. Thanks for Diani for staying with me there, otherwise will be so boring. Get well soon, ya Sunie cie". Sunie, Yuli, Diani and I went to Lafayette after picking Iecun (a brother from Lafayette) from Indy's airport. It was icy rain, now I had the opportunity to feel it closely. Thanks God for the safe trip, Yuli was the one who drove at that nite. On Saturday, I woke up in the morning for the intercessory meeting. It was my first time being assigned to share or teach something. I was nervous, but again......I took that as a good opportunity to share what God has taught me. God is an awesome God, He gave me an idea about what He wants me to share right before the time for me to share. I prepared another material on Friday, after searching for few days. Actually, it was the same material with what God puts in my heart, I realized it on Sat nite. I should have been integrating the material well, but it was good anyway. Praise the Lord! Waiting for more opportunities to learn how to share things and walking toward God's propechy in my life. I arrived at Indy at 11am. Thanks to Rudy and Sandy for that. Thanks God for the holiday, friends, and family. I'm so grateful for everything that I can enjoy........

First Experience Taking Frenz to Shop

Dear diary, today I woke up and looked at my temp. roomie, Diani, I found that we slept so well without disturbing each other. I slept at the left corner, while she slept at the right corner. Then, I checked my phone and found one sms from mom, so I called her....my father just tried her phone to send me a sms to find out whether it works or not. After that we prepared ourselves to go to Circle Center, first destination. But, before we go there, we had lunch at home. We went in to some stores that we want, but at first we didn't find anything that we like to buy. Until last two stores, diani finally got what she wants. Tonite, we are supposed to have dinner with some people, but ended up only diani, yuli and I. So we had dinner in Sichuan.......Thanks God for the safety and good memory that I can remember the way to go there. I was afraid driving in the rain and hmm thanks to Hery and Sunie for warning me about the freezy rain. Thus, I can prepare. God is a wonderful and faithful........I can drive well. After dinner, we proceed to Castleton mall, the other direction. I bought a training pants from Paul Frank, so cute. It's on sale, I wish I can buy pink but all those small sizes were gone, so I got grey, nice too. Nice window shopping, btw I acted as comentator today. Hopefully Yuli and Diani will be satisfied. Enough for today, will update tomorrow for another holiday service for Ms. Diani. Hope her stomach will get well soon. Thanks for today, Lord!

Goresan Isi Hati

Dalam dunia,
berjalan menyusuri hari-hari
berteman sepi, bersobat tawa
melihat mentari berganti hujan

Coba lihat dunia diluar sana
sebagian bersenda tawa
bersama maraknya dunia malam
gemerlap hidup
mengais kenikmatan sementara

Sedang yang lain bersusah
siang malam memeras keringat
membanting tulang
mencari sesuap nasi
demi hidup keluarga

Sementara dibelahan sana
terdengar tangis merebak sepi
perang yang tak berujung
bencana yang tak terduga
mimpi buruk yang mengundang tanya

Jauh diseberang
terdengar nyanyian yang teduh
suara tawa yang tulus
hati yang tenang
hidup yang penuh harapan

Tuhan.......
rintihku untuk mereka
sujudku berdoa menyeru
mengetuk pintu surga

Bapa.....
bilakah kasih kan menyentuh hati
bilakah damai kan tinggal tetap
bilakah ratap berganti tawa

Ingat dunia dalam doa kita

A half busy day

Today is a quite busy day and somehow I feel a bit dizzy. This afternoon, I cleaned my apartment because Yuli's parents may come and stay for a nite to catch the flight tomolow morning. Yuli called me this evening saying that they won't come, but anyway thanks for the plan. My living room is bigger now, hope my roomie will like it when she comes tomollow. Oh well...finally my roomie can see how is my apartment after I cleaned stuffs. After that I stopped by in LEE, to help Sunie buy the cough medicine for her co-worker. She is nice and caring, isn't she? Then I proceed to school...by the way today was a rainy day. I don't really like rain......because the road, my car and I become wet. Don't like wettie anywhere, unless shower time hahahhaha....I had to go to Cavanaugh hall bookstore to meet one of my friend to buy her textbooks, happy because I can save money. Textbooks cost in USA are so expensive, don't like that. So after finishing the buying process, I went to Sunie's office to exchange food with her. I got 2 slices of yum yum coffee cheesecakes and I gave her "nasi oleng" (fried rice)...hmmm didn't mean to trade. Both of us just want to give each other hehehhe....nice sista...i luv Sunie's cheesecake, just nice. I just half way done, LEE (2nd round), Meijer and GNC are waiting for next. I need to buy stuffs that my brother and parents want. Thanks to Yenny's mom and sister for the help. I really appreciate that. I did some groceries in Meijer and found out that Meijer has some "buy one get one free" stuffs. I ended up having 6lbs of carrot and 2 packages of oranges. Counting the price and so on, they were cheaper. Nice shopping. Then....I had little problem. I need to buy something for my doggie at home, I haven't met her yet though. My dad asked me to buy the medicine for flea. So by faith....I bought flea spray and dog collar, hopefully they will work well for my big doggie, named Angel huahuahua a beutiful name...can't stand for that. Eniwei yesterday, my mom told me that my six puppies are so cute nowadays. Hua.......can't imagine if my parents and brotha decide to have six of them. I'll ask my dad to build another small house for them then. I heard for mom that my brotha, Andre want to have 3 of them huaaaaaa...still a lot. Specially when they grow bigger and become naughty.....can't imagine. Finally, I came to my last destination, GNC store. For all of you who want to buy anything from GNC, contact me. I can lend you my gold member card. It's valid on the first week of every month, you'll get 20% disc. So just let me know if you want to buy from GNC. Before I went home, I need to post my electricity bill. And finally... I'm done. What a busy day. I went out at 1pm and arrived home at 5:30pm.....felt dizzy again ( I haven't had my breakfast and lunch at all). Carrying all the stuffs to my apartment was hard and heavy, but I did it. Somehow in Indy, I used to carry out heavy stuffs by myself, specially after grocery time. After putting all the stuffs in their proper place and packing my brothas stuffs, I had my dinner and took shower. I watched one DVD, a walk in the clouds, lent by Sunie. Nice story.....what a good man! Thanks for today, Lord. Thanks for the safe trip. Thanks for the courage to drive again. Thanks for everything .....

Another day........

Today I woke up at 9:30am, so nice...no need to get up at 6am anymore for tour, although i miss my tour. I think I miss it because of the people. We had fun with frenz n family. Eniwei, I planned to wake up at 10am cause I miss my family in Indo. Miss my mom, dad, n brothas. I wish they were here to celebrate the new year with me, but again there is time for everything. I believe God put me here for a reason. Being alone here teaches me that there is only one person who is available 24 hours for me, My Dear Father in heaven. So...feel lonely? Contact: 1-800-prayer2heaven, satisfied guarantee. I called my mom around 9:45pm in Indo, she just went back from out of the town. She needs time to change and wash her face....so on....well...you know that moms always taking care of their beautiful faces. I have to though. I called mom after another 15 minutes. We chit-chat for a while. Long time, didn't talk to her. My mom always gives me updated news. I love my mom...miss her much her. My mom is a unique mom, the best mom that I wouldn't never ask to be changed. Have you ever thank God for having your mom? Pray for her, so that God will strengthen her everyday. Then, I took shower and ready to cook for my lunch. First day of cooking after been absent from kitchen for a week. I cooked fried rice and made almond puding nyam nyam....(diani: cici diani mau ndak"nasi oleng"?) After that, I did laundry and cleaned my bathroom. By the way, I love my bathroom's view, pink and white, just lopely. Then.......I started to feel bored. So I watched DVD that Steph lent to me. At first, I watched Shrek 2, but something wrong with it. This caused some trouble with my compie, need to restart it. Thanks God, it worked. Then, I changed to anger management, hmm dunnot really understand the movie, so I changed to chinese movie...well not that interested. So finally I watched Gladiator. I wondered why this kinds of movie always have sad ending (the hero always died), so sad. After watching Troy...well thanks to Jenny n Sunie for that Sunday. I started to love hero movies. Hua....sleepy...time to start my nite adventure. Hope tomorrow will be a nice n wonderful day. Hear my wish, Lord. Nite alll.............

United Nation Building 

Double-D 

Lady

Niagara Falls 

Justin and I 

New Year 2005 

My Fun Temporary Roomie, Diani 

Beautiful Gals 

First Day In My Lopely Town

I'm back to town......"Debbie Claus is coming to town" la la la....feel happy and weird.....happy because finally i'm home and can have enough sleep, weird because it's so quite in my apartement. Going for a 7 days tour with 21 people I know and another 30 people outsider are so fun, specially when the time for taking pictures together comes. Fun and Tired are both decorating the tour. For around 6 days, we had to get up early in the morning. We usually started the tour around 7am, even earlier then my school time. But, it was fun. Meeting other people from different background was fun. The main problem was our Indo not-on time habit....hehehhe feel bad with other people. Our group was the biggest, 21 people, but some of us sometimes came a bit late, but thanks God no dispute arose. We met a cute handsome boy, named Justin. He is so shy, but when he gets comfortable then he is not that shy anymore...well...you know how kids are. I feel sad about the tsunami disaster. When I celebrated the New Year, I know there was a pain inside my heart. Thinking how Aceh residents' condition with no adequate shelter, food, etc. I pray that God's joy, peace, n love will flow abundantly in their heart. Let's join our heart un prayer for them. I believe that things happened because God has a plan, that is why we need to always hold to God. Facing the world that always changes without notice, we badly need to hold on somethings that is unchange, thus it's only God who is unchanging. I'm glad to have Jesus in my life, someone who I can depend on. How about you, friends? If you never invite Jesus in your life, do so. I miss my family so much. I remember that last new year, I was with them praying together after celebrating the new year. It was memorable. Thanks God I have Yuli, Tin", Diani, Andrew, and Sigit to be with me at Boston harbour to celebrate the new year, watch the fireworks. Thank you, Lord for being able to celebrate the new year, for family, for friends, for the trips, for the safety, for my life, for all You've done in me. I can't imagine to live a life without God. Every blessing that I can enjoy now, it's all from God, and let it back for God's glory. Let's go back to the tour for a while. First day was tiring. We got delay for the flight because there was no crew available. That week was a chaos week for the airport. Lots of flight got delay or cancel. After waiting for almost 2 hours, we finally departed from Indianapolis to New York, La Guardia. Then the tour guide brought us to our hotel, Hilton at New Jersey. We changed hotel every day. On Sunday morning at 7am, we went to New York. We visited Chinatown, UN building, Rockefeller center, Wall street, ride a ship in circle line ( if I'm not mistaken), at nite we continued our trip with bus to Philadelphia. Hyatt hotel neighbour was so beautiful. Diani, my fun temporary roomate and I can watch the harbour and ships at nite. I thank God for the opportunity to be able to know some people deeper. Having diani as my partner was fun. We always complete each other. I love to sleep at the bed that is located closer to the restroom, while Diani love the bed near the window. She likes to sit next to the window, opposite with me. The weather in the morning at Philadelhia was so cold. I felt like losing my ears. The wind was blowing so hard. We visited Indepence Hall, Carpenter's Hall, and Liberty Bell. Then continued the trip to Washington DC to visit Lincoln Memorial, Washington Monument, Jefferson Memorial, Capitol Hill, and White House. We slept at Sheraton...huaaaa the comforter is so soft and nice. The room was just beautiful. From 7 rooms that we booked for 21 people, we had one single bed room. I believe it was planned by God that I handed out the right room for every group. Diani and I got that room and it just right, otherwise other people in our group may have to switch with us. The group is divided to 4 or 3 or 2 people in a room. The next day, we had 8 hours trip from DC to Niagara Falls Buffalo. We stopped every 2 or 2.5 hours. The first stop was "Hershey's" chocolate world. Then Corning Glass Center, until finally Niagara Falls. The nite view was great there, but the wind was hard too, made it hard to capture a good picture. Thanks to Sigit and Steven for the companion. From Buffallo, we had another 8 hours drive to Boston. We had a lobster for dinner on the first nite at Boston. The lobster was good, but it hurted one of my finger. We visited Harvard University, MIT, Charles River, Quincy Market, Boston Common, Chinatown, Couple Square, Boston harbour and watched IMAX 3-D show. My body wasn't fit while we (Diani, Yuli, Tin", and I) watched the Polar Express 3-D. I felt dizzy and had stomach problem for the first half of the movie. I felt so torture....bad...but thanks God I still can watched 1/4 end of the show. We went to many places on the last day, fun and tiring experience. Sorry to some people if I complaint about my feet, but it was true. I feel tired on my feet. Thanks God for the on-time flight from Boston to Indianapolis. Feel sorry to Dodoy and Daniel for the re-route flight, but finally they back to Lafayette with Ray. We had lunch together at King Wok. We had 22 people joining for the lunch. It was great! Feel like family. Now...it's time to SATE (Daily Devotional) and Sleep........coz I still feel tired. Praise the Lord for the nice and warmer weather last few days. The road is clean now in Indy. What a nice view! Nite everyone...hope you enjoy my trips story. God bless and Have a Memorable New Year 2005! Welcome the brand new year. Let's ask God for new vision for the new year. Lord, may You work more and more in my life in this new year. I'm ready and available to be used mightily by You. Let's corporate, Father!