I know I will never be alone....

Finally it's weekend again. I had two exams during this week, I guess it's enough to accumulate my tiredness. On wednesday at prayer meeting, I was coughing, so after we're done with the meeting, I went back home and took the cough medicine, and slept early. I had a chance to talk to Shinta and we shared about some things and thanks God for the wonderful time I could pray for her.

Thursday morning,
I felt better when I woke up, thus I went to my morning class. It was colder than before. I was typing some letters using the typewriter, when I started to feel dizzy. Finally, I found Vonny to have lunch together. I planned to continue doing some stuffs in library after that, but my dizzy keep continuing, so I decided to drive back home. Thanks God for the safe trip from school to home. I took medicine before taking a nap. Thought that after take a nap, I would be better. No...no....it was worse. I can feel my body temperature was high, my face was a bit red, and my cheeks were like young tomatoes. My head was dizzy and painful. I still remember that last year on April, I experienced the same thing. I wasin Riverpointe that time. Thanks God that now I'm stronger that before. I was crying alone at my bedroom when I had fever last year. The homesick feeling, the family missing.........all were flying in my mind at that moment. But, this time.......I was stronger. I finally decided to continue having some bedrest before doing anything else, since I know I was not strong enough to even stand up for a while. Around 7:30pm, I tried to wake up and find some food for my dinner before taking another medicine. At that time, I remember Yuli, my ex-roomie......hiks hiks......missing her..........knowing that she will for sure cook for my dinner, specially when I'm not feeling well. Yuli has stopped working since last Friday, she is back in Lafayette now. Anyway....life must go on. I must eat something. I decided to eat the can noodle soup for my dinner. It is fast and tastes okay. Thanks God that I'm still be able to eat some food, so that I can take another medicine. After that, I heard a sermon from the cassettes that my aunt brought for me last time. Bros and Sis, hearing a sermon would help you a lot during your hard time....specially when you are sick and having dizzy. The sermond built me again. I was stronger..........it taught me to have faith that God will heal me definitely. The precher, Pastor Andrew, from Indonesia, said that many times, we don't have the healing miracles, because we haven't asked God by faith for healing. Oh...Lord...I believe I will experience You as my true healer, Amen! "You are the God that healeth me, You are the God my healer, You set your words and You heal my diseases, You are the God my healer" That is a song by the way, I kept singing that in my heart. Then.....I fell asleep again. My whole nite sleeping was full with long and continuous dream. I was doing a construction in a big building.........huehuehuee....I might accidentally bring my operation management class too much in my mind. It was so tiring to have a rest with that long, unmeaningful dream. It was 9:30pm when I started to sleep and I knew I woke up many times during that long night.

Friday morning,
I woke up early in the morning..........still having pain in my head, and realizing I'm having flu. I turned on my computer, was surprised looking at many pop up MSN windows. Some bros and sis asked about my condition. It made me happy, knowing that I have so many caring brothers and sisters. Thanks guys and gals! Then, I called my parents at Indo. My dad and mom were telling funny stories from the afternoon service at my church in Indo. Ciwan was in their room listening too. It was funny, but I couldn't laugh, cause I didn't feeling that well. I miss my familyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy........................miss my dad's stories, miss my mom's and sister's food, miss my bro's prayers. Thanks to Pastor for praying for me and also Selly for calling me for offering helps if I need. See... isn't that I have a wonderful family of God??? I can't never thank enough for this God's blessing.

Friday Care Group,
It was an awesome time to be with your family when you're sick. Although I was weak, I decided to come to CG knowing that I will see my lovely bros and sis there. We started a bit late cause waiting for our bros and sis from Lafayette. Thanks to bro Robert for the hai nan ci fan (do I pronounce it correctly?) it means steam chicken rice, and sis Sunie for the yummy soup and dessert. I was happy to see all bros and sis joining us last night. Thanks to Sandy, Linda, and Diani for coming here. Steph showed improvement in teaching, he was not as nervous as before I think. I felt stronger after having some food and spending precious time with my bros and sis. Diani and Sandy told me that Yuli brought some food for me. I was suprised and happy when I looked at the food inside the tapeware. It is a chicken congee.......man..........thank you Lord. This morning when I made a congee, I was thinking of Yuli's chick congee.....and now I have it............Thank you so much sista Yuli, how grateful I am to have you as my sister :) I also took some Sunie's soup...........So happy now...I don't have to cook food for myself.

Abba Father in heaven, thank you for putting me in Indianapolis. Thank you for training me to be an independent gal, when I have to be far away from my family for a while. It gives me the times to realize that I will never be alone whenever and wherever I am. The most important is I have You 24 hours in my life. You also gives me the chance to have all heaven's angels beside me (all my bros and sis), knowing that they love and care about me........it's so precious. Never thought how my life would be without You, my family, and my beloved brothers and sisters.

Guys and Gals, if you read this....I thank God for that. I just want to let you know that you and I would never be alone. Even......if you have no one with you to walk on this life, Jesus is there for you. He loves you that much, that He will be there 24 hours, 7 days, a week.........He is there for you. I pray that You can feel God's presence in your daily life, Amen!

It's now time to prepare myself. I'll go to Lafayette for the service and back directly. Lord, strengthen me during the trip, so I'll be just fine. I want to meet you this evening. Lord, make your healing miracle happens faster. I see it by faith knowing that You will surely heal me, Lord!

Debbie&Diani 

CaPLoG Sistas 

The Valentine Bear from Ci Ulie, tengkiu ci :)

Special Valentine present from Di..di..diani, tengkiu cay :) 

Valentine Gifts, thanks all :) 

Yuli, Linda, Me, Meggie, Diani 

Pinky Gals 

It's monday....

Hi diary......I haven't been blogging for a while, like usual: busy and tired. Finally, the Valentine celebration is done. It was a nice event, specially all CG presentations. Random applause for all, specialy for Ohana....well done guys! Talked to some Ohana members, they shared how they have to put "thick skin faces" for the presentation, but it was awesome guys...all audiences were standing together to give aplause. Cindrella by Going production was so funny... still remember the funny scenes. CaPLoG family made me proud. We never deal with editing a video before, but the bros did a good job, two thumbs for that. Thanks Lord for making it happened. CaPLoG made "CaPLoG dalam Berita" It was so fun and enjoyable moment on Friday. We were laughing, teasing each other.........thanks for joining us.

Saturday event was denominated by pinky gals. I'll upload some pictures in a while. Oh ya....wanna thanks a lot for Sigit, Evelyn, Meggie, Louis, Agung, Tin" and all bros and sis who had been working hard for the event. It was such a wonderful moment to work with you guys. Pastor was right about figuring out new people with talents. I got some chocolates and a Valentine present from Diani. Thanks Di, it's so cute. I love it, so sweet, like you and me huahuahua, rite or not? I took some picture with all the gifts yesterday.

Sunday........we met our fairy god mother, Sunie, with a new hair look. Thanks for bringing my stuffs, Sis Sunie. I can see my newest family pictures (though I was not there), and get the present from Lely. The syal is so pretty Lel. I was surprised knowing that it was your wonderful handmade. I guess, I need to learn how to cook and make a syal from you :P Really appreciate your times and efforts to make that special gift from me. I'll take picture with it, and let you see later on.

Sunday evening......reached Indianapolis at 4pm, unpacked my stuffs, looked at some pictures that Ciwan put on CD, thanks bro. It's so meaningful...... makes me wanna go back home soon.....then I slept until nite. I woke up for a while, checked my emails, took shower, sate and slept again. Lord, I wanna be like Daniel and His friends. Having a wisdom blessing from God, isn't that great?

Monday morning at 6am, thanks for waking me up Lord. I need to study for my exam now. Now, done with Financial exam, I'll have a marketing exam on Wed. Gonna be prepared for that "pretty difficult exam". Lord, let me be an excellent student with you.

When obidience brings blessing for others....

Hi diary, outside is raining heavily. I hear thunderstorm and see lightning....it brings me to remember the song with the title 'Still'....by the way, I was having a wonderful and super great time with my dear roomie, Yuli. Thanks God for the sharing and praying time. It bless my heart so much. Relating to the 'Still', that was the song that God put me when we were praying.

"When the ocean rises and thunder roars, I will soar with You above the storm. Father, You are king over the flood, I will be still know You are God....."

Lord, thanks for reminding me that You are God over everything. When storm comes, when thunder roars, when all things don't work as what I've expected, I will be still know You ara God. I believe You are holding my hands to walk through the storm.

Talking about our prayer time....it was great and awesome. Both of us didn't feel that we've already prayed for an hour. Bros and Sis, when God's present is there, you will never get bored with praying........it just seemed quick...and wonderful. What strucked me the most.....God used my roomie, Yuli to talk about God message for me personally. When we finished praying, I shared to her about a topic that she prayed for me and how that topic was just true. It was exactly what my heart longs for.....search for. Something that has been distrurbing me over and over and many times shift my focus. It's someting that potentially keep me from running with God.

Lord, thanks for opening my eyes once again to realize how I was shifting my focus for a while..........God put this message in Yuli's heart since last week. Thus, God placed an urgency for her to pray..........at first, the message didn't match with what we've shared before praying, indeed.........it was something very very important in my life. Thanks for that ci Yuli, that means so much for me. I believe God pleases to see your obidience in sharing God's personal message to me. I may have been insensitive with what God wants to tell me. Anyhow, I'm so happy now......cause God is still there. He cares for me deeply as for you too... Lord, I know I will never walk alone. Doesn't matter who will be there......as long as I have you with me. I know I can always count on You anytime. Thanks for never letting me walk alone. Thanks for staying there and reminding me again and again............Lord, You're my best friend.

Focus....focus....and focus...............God knows your struggles and He will answer that. Seek and Find Him, bros and sis.........He is so real.....He is just a prayer away. How many of us searching for someone/something wrong??? Finding a fulfilment in a wrong way..........it's never too late to come back to God. Burn your first love for God. Ask Him to remind you once again........how did you fall in love with Him....how does it feel...............

I want to fall in love with God over and over again............specially in this Valentine day. Just the two of us, God and I.....amen!

My sista Yuli, an angel, God has sent to my life. She is a precious blessing that heaven gives. I treasure all the things (love, joy, tears, laughter, prayer) that we have shared. I enjoy all the moments we spent together. I never can thank God enough for having you in my life. You mean a lot to me. Thanks for all the helps, supports and prayers. Gonna miss you badly when you leave, but I know God prepares you for a greater mission back in Indo. I believe we will meet again soon. Luv you, sis!

The sixth 

A story about Lovely 6th puppy

My chat with my first brother, Ciwan:
This is about my youngest puppy, Mom likes to call her "Arab" so I asked Ciwan why....
Andre, Pursue ur dreams says:
arab no 6 paling malas n manja (arab number 6, the laziest and most spoil one)
Andre, Pursue ur dreams says:
kalo dikurung nangis (if she is grounded, she will cry)
Andre, Pursue ur dreams says:
kerasssssss (very loud)
Andre, Pursue ur dreams says:
terus rambut depan ada keriting (some of the front hair is curly)

Isn't that funny? Looking at all these puppies pictures makes me want to go back to Indo now......I wish to see them. I want to play and take pictures with them. This is just funny.........I don't like doggie, but having mickey before and lovely currently aren't that bad. Do I start liking dog? I guess I love puppies. Wish that lovely's kids won't grow bigger.

The fifth and sixth puppy 

Lovely and Arab, the nickname Mommy gives for the puppy 

I got a teddy bear from someone special....

Happy Valentine everyone....Telling the story about my past Valentine catched some people's attention. So I was questioning myself, was i wrong by doing that? Well.......some people already read that.

Nothing happened on the Valentine day....just went to school like usual. This morning I passed BP gas station and it was $1.66, so I decided to fill my tank. My first class was cancelled, but I didn't know at advance. It didn't make any differences for my schedule eniwei. Today, classes were fine, but our group's proposal got rejected. So Sally, Jeremy, and I were working together after class. Lord, please open up the way.

When I was in the library.......Yuli called me and told that she forgot to bring the apt key, so she decided to go to grocery shops first. Finally, we decided to have a dinner outside, and I chose King Wok.

Here we go...........after we arrived home, Yuli gave me the teddy bear, so sweet... never imagined that I will get a teddy bear this valentine, cause I don't expect to receive any gift. Thinking to give a name for the bear. Thanks a lot cicik Ulie, the bear is as sweet as you...So now readers, that is the answer for the title.

Anybody want to join our Valentine celebration:
February 19, 2005 at 4pm-8pm in West Lafayette??? please contact me if you are interested. It's gonna be fun, gals and guys.

When it is only God....

Last week was a busy week, was tired with many activities, but I thank God for He always refreshes me with His love. Lord, I want more excitement in my life. Let's walk together, Abba.....help me to see things with Your eyes. Lord, I want to soar like an Eagle....with unlimited strength and joy from You. I thank God for last week, for all things that I experienced. Until now....I can't stop thank God everytime I drive my car....look around at Indianapolis's view, how life goes...one thing for sure. I can stand for whoever I am now because of God. I was so fragile before......easy to break....that's what Renny said, I still remember the times when I always beg my parents to allow me go back to Indo and not studying here....oh Lord, I thank you for such wonderful parents. I won't be at this point if I returned to Indo at my first couple semesters. You are God who knows the best for me.....I'll hold on time, Father. Mom...Dad...Ciwan...Ko Andre... thanks for all things that you guys have done to train me to become an independent gal. At the saddest part of my life at past.....I experienced how God is a living God....how He brought me from that point until now...I can only stand amazed at You, Lord!

Valentine is coming.....first valentine being single after a while....My 2001 Valentine will be the most memorable valentine I ever had so far....I was single at that time. In the morning, I only got a chocolate gift from one of my best friends at high school, Olve. Suprises came at nite......hmm...first one....came a bouquet of white roses with a card on it from someone. Next, came a big forever friend, named Gabbie, with a white rose....and last one came a basket of forever friend bears with some white roses..... The first rose was true flowers, while the second and third were plastic.........thanks for all of those. It was wonderful.....It was enough to make my mom confused. So how is my valentine gonna be this year???? hehehehe.........

Last 2 weeks, God taught me once again about understanding what I need. For those of you who had a girlfriend/boyfriend should know this feeling. You were happy for sometimes as being single again....have a freedom, and so on. After a while, you start to feel that you miss something. A place in your heart asked for a fulfilment.........as a normal gal, I felt that too (an honest confession). But...God makes me realize that it's only Him who can fill that blank place. I had someone before......but still I know I didn't fully satisfied. For a sister: you were right when you said a companion is not what I need for now........ God stress that once again. So...now.......shifting my attention......don't want to be bothered by all these things anymore.......God knows when that day should come. Lord, help me to focus on You. I don't want to waste my times again..........I will run with you, Lord......

I will be still know You are God

Friday Morning....
calling my family at Indo. Then went to school for team meeting and doing homework. The first team meeting was fine. Every members seem like they want to work together, hopefully it will stay like that. We were thinking and planning about ideas that we may use for our I-core project. I stayed at school until 3:30pm then went to Lee and Kroger for buying some items for the CG tonite. I finished cooking for CG at 5:30pm then took shower and packed my bag to go to Lafayette tonite. We had Yanuar, Eddy Leno, and Alana (from Bloomington), Pastor and Cik Lyd joining us for the CG. It was fun and great, thanks to our bros and sis from bloomie, I really appreciate your willingness to come. Overall, we had delicious food and dessert, fun PW session, great sermon, and nice fellowship. Yuli and I went back to Lafayette after that.

Saturday Morning,
I woke up at 9:30am, but felt dizzy....so I decided to sleep again for a while. Thanks Sandy, for the transportation to church. We had our music practice at 11am this week. After a while not ministering as tambouriner, yesterday, I got the chance to dance again. Was excited for that....but while in practice, my body was tired, so I couldn't really practice. The service was great, I believe God started working at people's heart. Lord, please help us to remember our first love to you again. God taught me that he is the only one that I need. Many times, I didn't realize that I kept looking around to find something, someone, that would satisfy the deepest need of my heart. It's only Him, who will be able to fill that place. Lord, I want to experience you more and more in my daily life.
We went to Hana, a korean resto for our dinner. CaPLoG family went with Pastor and Cik lyd, and also my sweet sista, Diani.... thanks for coming to the church, Di. I'm happy to see you there.

All nite prayer, Saturday at 10pm - 4am....
Here we go...finally the time is coming. We had our all night prayer yesterday. It was awesome, thanks God for the strength to be able to join all sessions. I was assigned for the first session, 10pm, with Patty, Agung, n Dennis. I had all CaPLoG family with me because they want to go back right after that. At the service, God already put something in my mind. That was what I asked Him. 6 hours prayer time would not be boring and long, if God is present with us. What we've prayed came true. At the first session, we focused on repentace, God was working amazingly. People started to feel His presence again. Thanks God for embrace me with your love and hug once again. God promised if we come and join our heart together, really seek Him, He will surely come. Bros and Sis, God has a very big desire to see us encounter Him personally. Second session were awesome too. People started to have a big dream and pray for that. Basically, each session has different theme and experiences. Thank you, Lord for having the chance to experience all of them. God talked about many things to me at the 3rd session. God put me the burden for my family at Indo and CaPLoG family. Help me to continue walking with You, my God. Lord, give me the strength and courage to do Your will. It was great and awesome to see all bros and sis joined heart together in prayer and God was there.

Sunday
Going back to Indy with Pastor and cik Lydia. I arrived at my home sweet home around 3:30pm. Now it's the time for studying and doing homework. I was dissapointed when I checked my marketing exam grade. It was not what I have expected. I was sad for that....I've given my best, but still can't get a satisfactory grade. Lord, help me to see things with Your eyes, not my eyes.

Lord, help me to stand up and walk with You

Hi diary, today I felt so tired. I woke up in the morning and prepared to the first class. I was 10 minutes late, (I felt bad coz this is my 1st time coming late to class) but thanks God, I didn't miss lots of things. The reasons why I was late: I chose a neat dress for the afternoon interview with Mr. Justin Ong, and I filled my car gasoline since I saw a price drop. Don't want to be late anymore, cause this will create bad image on others' perspective about you, unprofessional. After done with my class, I met my finance teacher. I was sad coz I expected him to help me, but he seemed reluctant to go over problems one by one, so I decided to just ask few things and then left. I went to library to find the nearest way to Yuli's office for my appointment. Today, I had lunch with Justin and Yuli. It was a great time with two of them. Justin is the human resources manager of Foxconn-QEdge company (where Yuli works). Thanks to Yuli for asking him for the interview. Thanks Lord for having the right person for my interview. Justin is a very nice and humorous guy. A friendly and outgoing person, feel so relax to work with him. It was a great interview, Justin has done more than what I asked and expected. So glad to interview him, I decided to give him something as my appreciation. I did the interview in the company, so kind a get an inside view about where my dearest rommie works at. You'll find both American and International people work there. Can't imagine how do my job and workplace look like in the future, I hand in to you, Father! We made a great dinner with our yummy and selected choice of food. I need to absorb Yuli's skill in cooking more. Somehow, I feel overwhelmed with so many things: family requests for help, school stuffs, and ministries. Oh God, help me through this hard time. Enable and strengthen me to prioritize and manage my time properly. I need you more than yesterday, more than before, Lord. Please do pray for me, bros and sis. I want to be able to handle things with God and come out as the winner. Lord, I believe at your might works. Let me experience You more and more...........I badly need Your grace, mercy, wisdom, Father!

Finally we have our advisor...

Hi, I've been busy with school. So, let's start with Monday. I woke up in the morning then kind a rush a bit to catch my appointment with our advisor candidate, Mrs. Kim Donahue. After a while...I finally arrived at school. We talked over the organization and I let her read our documents. She went through the constitution and fixed some errors. Thanks to her, though I still not sure if she wants to be our advisor. So, I asked her....and yippie...praise the Lord, she said "yes"......we can proceed then. I need to make some corrections before she put her signature in the form. I went to the library to study there before my classes began. Basically, that was my Monday. On tuesday, as usual, I had a morning class. I planned to stay in school to study, since I was so tired on Monday and didn't study at nite. I stayed at school together with Vonny, Stephy. I had an evening lunch with Vonny, it was fun time with her. Thanks sis! I went back home after the evening class. Vonny and I planned to have a home-cooking dinner with Sandy and Yuli. The food was all great, thanks a lot to our chefs. Thanks for waiting for us, San. Hello wednesday! I had a marketing class, it went okay, I made some mistakes...sad :( well, I gave my best already. May God work on it. Today, I hand the form to prof. Donahue, she signed in the form. At the between class break, I ran from BS building to UC to submit the fom. So............the form and documents are in the house already. Now, it's the time for waiting. Let's pray together that the process will be smooth and fine. We will have a IUPUI account for the organization too. God, I pray that this will be a good start for the CG expansion. Let Your will be done. We had CG prayer meeting tonite, thanks for coming guys. Special thanks to Selly for the cute pink baby doll....nice and sweet :) We had fun together. Selly starts busy working with money since she is our treasurer now. That's all for today....I get sleepy earlier lately. Tomorrow, I'll have my interview for HR class. Pray that it will work well. Niteeeeeeeeeeeee