Help me through see from Your perspective...

Morning diary,

Yesterday I was trully sad, I felt so pressure about all this school stuffs. Trying to call my mentor, but she was not at home.....I keep talking to God, asking for a new strength and also wisdom to understand the books that I have to read.

Sometimes it is just hard to be strong..... Thanks for hunny who called me when I was thinking if someone may call me during this sad time. Thanks for the advices and supports.

Lord, thank you for making the book interesting to me finally. I was too afraid that I have no confidence in my self and in You.

New strength, new joy, new way to look things................welcome Wednesday!

Hold me and walk beside me, Father...

Dear diary,

Since the school starts, I often feel afraid and worried about the school stuffs. About my classes that seem to have much reading from some books that I’m afraid I could not understand fully, about books that I have ordered since August 19 or last week, but I still have to wait for those until now.

Lord, I know I’m not supposed to be afraid or worry. This is my weakness, most of every new semester; I always see my school as a dark sky…though God always proves His faithfulness, sometimes the side of my human just fails to believe 100% on Him. Lord, I always say that semester may change, but Jesus will stay the same. He has been faithful to me before, and I know He will always be…. Lord, I can only do my best in this semester. Six classes: five of them are my major classes and one of them is an elective. Heavy duty semester….but I know I will survive when I put my school into God’s wonderful hand.

Lord, I need Your grace and strength to stand firm everyday….to walk through this semester, to keep the joy that You have put in my heart…. It isn’t easy, but I know You will guide me, Father. Don’t let me fail in trusting You, Lord! I claim that even today after… I will walk in miracles with my dear Lord in everyday life.

Gonna be diligent, discipline, and strong… what I will be facing may not be easy, but 2 Corinthians 12:9, He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me.

And I will say my source of strength, my source of hope in Christ alone… In You, I put my trust, Lord. Don’t let me walk alone….even for a second…Hold me and walk beside me, Father. Amen….

Now, It’s the time for me to read my textbooks…..

WIth Brothers.... 

Korban Keganasan Bros and Sis...hiks...hiks... 

B-day From CaPLoG 

B-day Surprise from Hunny  

Pon-Pon, Mei-Mei, Din-Din 

Scholarship Award at Beta Gamma Sigma breakfast 

Sisters + Ray made CaPLoG with the hand 

CaPLoG inC. family, Retreat Spring 2005

Shinta, Me, and Diani 

Valentine Project, "CaPLoG inC. in news" 

Good afternoon all....

Hi Diary,

Weekend was fun like usual. Hunny, we finally made our private time. It was a wonderful and great time to share our lives together and even to pray for each other and others also. Will keep trying to do it regularly…..sharing about things in life, about how our dear Father in heaven has done many great things in our life, even in our friendship. We will keep building each other up, hun!

The service was great, good job Andrew Lee! We have new music director, congrats to Dodoi. We will support you as a music team, bro! Be confidence and do your best!

Thanks to Pastur and Cie Lydia who brought me back to Indy. When we were having lunch at Joo-Joo after prayer meeting, I found that the fun and loving times being with bros and sis in Lafayette was the reason why I love coming to Lafayette every weekend. I enjoy traveling there since my first semester being in Indianapolis.

Friends here just like your own family. No matter where I am as long as I can be with those people whom I love, small city would be okay hehehehhe, rite or not hun???

Yesterday night, we were planning a b-day surprise for our bro, William. We planned to meet at my house at 8pm, but people came late. Thus it made me have enough time for taking shower and having my dinner. Guess what?? William was not at home, he was in Mul’s house having the dinner. Huaaaaaaaaa…..funny….we finally went there and celebrate his b-day. Another funny thing was we forced Woonket to sing….sorry Woonket….he finally did it!! Next time, sing for me on my b-day ya…. Shinta is moving together with Selly in eagle creek court…yippie ^-^

This morning I went to school with a new joy and strength from God. Thanks God that I can finally enroll in the Sociology class. I also decided to take the Chinese class as fail/pass option. This semester, life may be very busy. There are things that make me afraid and worry, but Lord, teach me to believe and surrender fully. Tonight, I’ll be having my other night class in Nursing building, a far building. You don’t want to have class in there at night, but I have no choice. I pray that God’s full protection will be upon me, Amen! Lord, please make this tonight class as a fun and enjoyable class.

Sorry to someone for not being able to answer the call this morning. I was a bit rush preparing myself for school.

I want to see my house in Indo...

Hi Diary,

This morning I wake up and called my parents. I only talked to my dad and second bro, Andre. Then, I washed my jeans, man...it is so hard and heavy to wash a jeans. Since this jeans may destroy other cloth's colors, I must wash separately. After that, I called my mom again...my maid answered the phone and said that my mom is trying the new bicycle in the house.....wah....I dunno how my house looks like now, probably bigger and have more wider space....when my mom ride the bike, one of my dogs kept following her. I can imagine that, must be so funny.....huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....Miss my home now. When I was at home during my last week, the house was being renovated.

I renewed my contract this afternoon, after making sure that all my fellow bros and sis will remain staying in eagle creek court. Then, I went to radio shack to buy the foreign travel outlet adapter, one for diani and one for me. I need this adapter to convert my nokia charger, so now I can use my Indo cell phone, a special gift from my dad. Tengkiu Pa-Pa........for everything....Love you so much.......

Thanks to Steph for buying me the book from bookstore. I planned to go to school, but they can't do the adding process today. Gonna do it on Monday....

Going to Lafayette in the evening with Budi and Steph. Thanks Bud for driving. I didn't realize that I'm on the schedule for ministry this Saturday upss.......until Andrew Lee called me. Sorry guys....I really don't realize it. What I remember is that I'm on the schedule for next two weeks service.

I'll be staying in my hunny's house. She made almond puding and melon nutrigell nyam nyam...tengkiu so much hun.....

Good nite alllllllllll..............................

Thank you Lord for today....

Dear diary,

I’m really grateful for what God has done to me. This afternoon, I finally when to the sociology class which I was on the waitlist, second position. I was waiting for the right time to talk to the professor. As he was calling each student’s name, he finally asked who has not been called. One student and I both were raising our hands; I said to him that I was on waitlist. He directly said that he would add both of us….after all I was still worried because of the prerequisite that I have not taken.

After class done, I came to talk to him. I informed him that I have not taken the prerequisite: Sociology R100, the introduction. He asked me if I have taken any other socio classes. I was worried at that time….finally he said, it is okay, I’m willing to watching over you. WOW…………my heart was really happy. Thank you, Lord! Now, I can drop my psychology class, after getting my name into the system for this socio class.

This sociology class does not have many assignments, but you have to read, reflect and write, that was what the teacher said. We have four-five different books that we have to read. I definitely need God’s grace to read and understand, even to write the three paper assignments. Lord, I just surrender this class onto Your hands. As you allow me to take, I believe You will also walk with me throughout the semester. I will do my best and let You do your part, Father!

Thanks a lot to hunny for the prayer. Prayer does work hun! Don’t be too tired, okay!

Today, I sold my finance textbook. Because there is the newest edition, I cannot sell my book higher, but it is better to sell to someone rather than to the bookstore. Thanks God for the buyer. Two of my textbooks that I have ordered online have arrived, still have some more. Make it fast, Lord!

Nyampe rumah jam 6, ambil paket di office, terus liat2 surat. Then, I decide to run….keliling2 kompleks apartment gitu. Seperti biasa, kalo pas lari biasa minta ditemenin hunny, jadi de aku call hunny………..eitt kelupaan kalo hunny ga bawa hp, eniwei dia juga meeting. Kacian deh si hunny….tahan ya….bentar lagi dateng kok heheheh. Jadi deh aku lari-lari sendiri…..sambil menikmati alam pemberian Tuhan. Kalo lari disini enak, ga polusi, ga ada yang godain, kalo di Indo kan rada kudu jaga”. Serem kalo cewe lari sendirian di Indo….

Okie dokie, this is my update for today………thanks God for today, for the school and for all You have done. You are amazing.

You are so faithful before….I know and believe….You will always be faithful now and then, Amen!

Must be stronger each day...

Dear diary,

Gara-gara kelas yang aku pilih masih on waitlist, hari ini jadi ada tiga kelas. Tadi barusan udah kelas psychology, serem deh, abis banyak kerjaan gitu.....dunno....somehow my heart feels blue now, a lil' sad. Lord, help me to believe 100 percent that You are taking control of my school life. Sometimes I think, kalo ambil jurusan cuman satu, kayaknya ga seberat ini. Well, there is a cost to be paid for something good you want to get for your future. Dear Father, help me....to be grateful....to move on...run with You.

Niatnya mau lunch sama anak2, eh vonny ada kelas jam 1, si Livita ga diangkat telponnya. Mau ke rumah Shinta, mayan jauh jalannya n aku bakal ada kelas at 2:30 di gedung yang bagus tapi pojokan, IT. Terus ada chinese class nanti jam 4-5:15pm. Still thinking....kelas chinese mau di pass fail ga yya???? Tuhan, bantuin donk kelas sociologynya biar ama gurunya dikasih masuk. Please give me the strength, joy and wisdom. I hope the sociology class would be interesting.

Cerita ttg kelas malem kemaren, puji Tuhan ketemu ama americans yang sebelonnya jadi classmatesku di HR class, sama senengnya aku ma dia. Jadi dah ada group buat project. Gurunya seru n fun, thanks dear Lord, You heard my prayer. So, I guess wednesday nite class would be alright with God's help. So far kelas" business kemaren sih mayan okay.....with God's grace. Cuman electives ini pada bikin aku worry, mau psychology ato sociology ya??? Ciwan blg mending sociology....oh God...help me to decide....I'll see how my sociology class going... I've tried to meet the professor, but he was not in his office, jadi skrg masih ngantung....bisa ga dia kasih permission, since aku ga pernah ambil intro to sociology.....Lord, You hold my hands, and I surrender this to You.

Sekarang laper ni......nah ini yang bikin ngiri ama cerita hunny yang tiap makan siang ada temennya.....hun, cini donk....temenin aku lunch juga, plizzz.....bole ga??

Ya udah deh, sekian dulu ngeblog hari ini. Eniwei, tiap aku rada susah hati, I always remember this song:

Kaulah Tuhan yang berjanji
Tak sekalipun Kau ingkari
KesetiaanMu sungguh terbukti
Di sepanjang hidupku

Tuk s'lamanya ku 'kan setia
Melayani...MengasihiMu
Tiada Tuhan yang s'pertiMu
Kau Allahku yang setia....

Amen....Yes Lord, I know you will always be faithful to me. Thanks for having a dear Father like you. Oh iya tadi pagi mama sms........seneng deh....hueheuhuehue....thanks for someone who always sends me a sms everyday! Sorry for being unable to reply your sms everytime.

Eittttttt ada yang ketinggalan:
Huepi Buigday buat my beloved bunda, Jenny. Udah aku sms sich....Pray that you will have a wonderful new year as you walk faithfully with God. I'm proud to see how you are growing in God day. Pray that whatever plans God has created in your life will be fulfilled. Love you, bunda! Take a good care and keep in touch....miss you much here ^.^

Morning...Morning...

Morning diary,

Today is my first day of school. Though it is gonna be a long day in school, I pray that the evening class would be interesting, thus won't make me tired. I believe God's new strength and joy will be with me today, Amen! God, give me an intresting and wonderful new semester! I know I will survive when I walk with You, my dear God!

Yesterday, I was having dinner with two of my sisters in Indy, Sunie and Sinta. It was awesome, since I have not met them since last May. We went to BW3 ( I hope I spell it correctly) and chocolate coffee house (I think), both are in downtown. We were having fun, telling each other stories....a wonderful dinner with sisters.

Sorry to Vonny that I cannot pick her up. I'm still in the process of ending my jetlag. Yesterday, I slept before 11pm....actually I prefer to sleep early and wake up early, just like what I did in Indonesia this Summer. But, I still woke up around 4:30-5:00 am, then I forced my self to sleep again. Thanks God, it works!

Now, it's time for me to prepare myself for school day. Lord, I don't know how this semester will go, but I claim that semester may change, classess may be heavier and harder, schedule may not be as what I have expected, still You will always be a faithful Father for me. You have walked with me since my first semester, and you will still walk with me through my senior year. Two more semesters and one Summer, wanna see more of You in my life. Let Your will be done in me.

New Joy, New Spirit, New Strength, New Wisdom....for the new semester, Amen!

My beloved family....

Dear my mom and dad,

I’m writing this to my mom. Last three months holiday, I get closer to you mom. We always be a friend for each other. The funniest thing is that lately we wear the same color for our clothes, though we never plan before.

The best thing buat aku tuh saat aku ma mama jalan2 bareng baik di dalam maupun luar kota. Makasih ya, mam. Mama udah temenin meme kemana2 selama meme di Indo. I’m so grateful to have a mother like you.

Buat papa, makasih ya…….papa selalu sediain apa yang meme pengen, apalagi kalo soal makanan. Tapi yang paling meme syukuri, keputusan papa buat do some ‘secret make over’ kalo ga papa nyuruh, sampe sekarang juga ga bakalan terjadi. Dan hasilnya, TOP banget. Tengkiu pap……..Paling seru bareng papa tuh nonton serial film silat ‘Twin Heroes’. Tadi pagi dah diceritain tamatannya, entar taon depan meme liat sendiri pap.

Mama….Papa….Anugerah terindah dan terbaik yang pernah Tuhan kasih buat meme. Meme ga akan pernah mau ditukarin papa mama yang laen….Kalian berdua bersama Ciwan, and Ko andre udah membuat hidup meme jadi komplit banget….Love you guys!

Makasih Tuhan buat mereka berempat. Aku berdoa biar Tuhan selalu menjaga dan melindungi mereka. Biar berkat Allah boleh tercurah buat mereka, Amen!

See you guys next year………will always miss all of you, specially those times we spent on my last days: makan di Ricky Bistro, Surabaya Suki, mezbah keluarga, curhat bareng dikamar mam-pap, semua deh…………wahhhhhhhhh….taon depan lagi ya!

I'm back...

Dear diary,

Back to write again……..sharing God’s blessings for you and me….

I’m finally back to my home sweet home at U.S. This is my fourth day being away from my other home sweet home and lovely family back at Indonesia. First of all, I want to say thank you for my dear Father in heaven who gave me the strength and courage to walk on. It was hard, heavy, and sad when I realized that my summer holiday in Indonesia would come to end very soon, “it’s hard to say goodbye, and yes, it is true”, but I prayed to God, asking for the strength and joy to move on. And it came to reality, on the day when I was in Juanda airport ini Surabaya, I was crying a bit when I hug my dear families, but my heart was ready……ready to go….ready to fly…thank you, Lord. Without You, I could not move on.

I was happy and ready when I was on the plane, flying from Surabaya-Singapore, then I decided to watch ‘guess who’ movie, and here we go… fear came to my heart. I was sad, imagining my life would be different. I will not see my dear parents and brothers, my spiritual sister, my yayank dew, and others……..but life must go on. I know some people in U.S want me back soon too….specially, my hunny….is that true hun???

My heaviest trip was the time in New York, when Daniel and I must transfer our stuffs from international to domestic flight. The stuffs were many and heavy. At that time, I felt like crying and wanting to be back in Indonesia. Thanks God, we finally got things done.

After spending a total of 36 hours for flight and transit, I finally arrived in Indianapolis on Thursday, August 18, 2005. Feel a bit strange….thanks to Wil and Steph who picked me up at the airport, also for Dodoy and Daniel for the help.

I was happy to see my apartment, but then I found out that my beautiful toilet was having some problem. The bath up was dirty, a lot of ‘butiran kecil (don’t know in English)’ and the water could not flow properly. The toilet bowl could not be flushed. I just came back to U.S and found those unhappy stuffs. Here comes the different between being in U.S and Indo. When this happens in Indo, I can just ask my daddy or maids to help me. Here, I must be an independent gal. I never regret at my parents’ will to send me here, I’m even grateful for their willingness to support me. I can learn how to be an independent gal.

I tried hard not to sleep early because I don’t want to experience long jetlag. I finally slept at 10pm, was hungry hiks hiks…didn’t feel like cooking instant noodle, so I decided to sleep.

Woke up at 5:30 am, I was a bit shocked being alone in the morning. The sky was still dark. I was sad, but I asked God for a new strength and joy. I decided to buy a phone card and called mom at home. “Allah turut bekerja untuk mendatangkan kebaikan bagi setiap orang yang mengasihi Dia.” Gara-gara jet lag ini, aku bisa beres2 koper pagi itu juga and done….seneng deh…….makasih Tuhan.

Jam 8 pagi ajak Steph ke Mc Donald, laper banget……terus ke officenya eagle creek, laporin masalah kamar mandi. After that, aku urus2 beli buku online, hopefully bukunya bisa nyampe buruan deh.

Akhirnya jam 1 siang, maintance dateng n betulin masalah2 dikamar mandi, seneng deh… terus siap2 mau ke Lafayette ketemu my hunny. Soalnya aku masih jetlag, gampang ngantuk, steph yg nyetir, aku bobok bentar hehehhe…

Weeken was fun, ketemu sama semua bros and sis. Feel homie again…thanks God. Pas sharing time, Tuhan ingetin aku buat share apa yang Tuhan taruh dihatiku pas aku harus kembali ke U.S. No matter where I am, I know for sure that God will always be there. Ga peduli di Indo, di Amrik, semester ganti, skul mungkin tambah sulit, Tuhan tetap Tuhan yang sama…….kalo semester kemaren, di Indo, Tuhan luar biasa, disini Tuhan bakal tetep….bahkan lebih….

One last year being in United States, I want to be maximal for God. Wanna give everything, all my best, for whatever things God wants me to do. Pokoknya, aku mau Tuhan paksain tiap rencananya buat terjadi di hidupku, Amen!

Hun…jangan lupa weeken depan, acara private time kita…yang batal kemaren sabtu gara2 aku dah ngantuk hehehehe…jetlag sih hun. Pengen sih benernya….mau nutrigel lagi bole? Ato pudding almond???

Thank you, Lord for a wonderful and fun weekend being with my family here. Now, I’m preparing my heart to be ready for school. This semester is gonna be harder and schedule is not as what I have expected. Senin-Rabu kelas bakal sampe 8:30pm. Ada satu kelas masih in waitlist and asking for instructor’s consent. Ayo Tuhan, bantuin ya…pokoknya biar rencana Tuhan aja yang terjadi. Bapa tahu yang terbaik buat aku, Amen!