When it is only God....

Last week was a busy week, was tired with many activities, but I thank God for He always refreshes me with His love. Lord, I want more excitement in my life. Let's walk together, Abba.....help me to see things with Your eyes. Lord, I want to soar like an Eagle....with unlimited strength and joy from You. I thank God for last week, for all things that I experienced. Until now....I can't stop thank God everytime I drive my car....look around at Indianapolis's view, how life goes...one thing for sure. I can stand for whoever I am now because of God. I was so fragile before......easy to break....that's what Renny said, I still remember the times when I always beg my parents to allow me go back to Indo and not studying here....oh Lord, I thank you for such wonderful parents. I won't be at this point if I returned to Indo at my first couple semesters. You are God who knows the best for me.....I'll hold on time, Father. Mom...Dad...Ciwan...Ko Andre... thanks for all things that you guys have done to train me to become an independent gal. At the saddest part of my life at past.....I experienced how God is a living God....how He brought me from that point until now...I can only stand amazed at You, Lord!

Valentine is coming.....first valentine being single after a while....My 2001 Valentine will be the most memorable valentine I ever had so far....I was single at that time. In the morning, I only got a chocolate gift from one of my best friends at high school, Olve. Suprises came at nite......hmm...first one....came a bouquet of white roses with a card on it from someone. Next, came a big forever friend, named Gabbie, with a white rose....and last one came a basket of forever friend bears with some white roses..... The first rose was true flowers, while the second and third were plastic.........thanks for all of those. It was wonderful.....It was enough to make my mom confused. So how is my valentine gonna be this year???? hehehehe.........

Last 2 weeks, God taught me once again about understanding what I need. For those of you who had a girlfriend/boyfriend should know this feeling. You were happy for sometimes as being single again....have a freedom, and so on. After a while, you start to feel that you miss something. A place in your heart asked for a fulfilment.........as a normal gal, I felt that too (an honest confession). But...God makes me realize that it's only Him who can fill that blank place. I had someone before......but still I know I didn't fully satisfied. For a sister: you were right when you said a companion is not what I need for now........ God stress that once again. So...now.......shifting my attention......don't want to be bothered by all these things anymore.......God knows when that day should come. Lord, help me to focus on You. I don't want to waste my times again..........I will run with you, Lord......